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April 26, 2008

Im not sure if I can do this...

Im really not. I dont know that I can take another stupid step in this life feeling confidant, strong, important and loved. Its such a damn shame too, my make up looked perfect now all you can see is black streams running down my face. A face that has frowned 100 times more than its smiled, a face thats cried itself to sleep every night for 2 weeks.

For too long, waaay to f****n long, life has been handing me nothing but sucker punches. My thoughts always come back to this one thought...is this really a life I want to live? Alone? I hate, how now I have addictions...things i NEED to have just to get me through the day...things I look forward to because I know I will feel better after.

I just really dont know if Im gonna end up doing something incredibly bad and stupid, or whether someone will come along and talk me off my proverbial ledge.

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    • Photo of JeanieAnn JeanieAnn
      JeanieAnn
      Female, 42
      Tempe, AZ
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      Dance as if no one were watching, Sing as if no one were listening, and Live every day as if it were your last!
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      Posted 2 months ago by JeanieAnn

      Hey Hon! You need to believe in yourself...you have to see past the bad that is going on in your life right now and realize you have so much more ahead of you that is worth living for, worth exploring. For some reason you were meant to go through this difficult time but in the end you will only emerge stronger - just don't give up. You have to look for the positive in life and embrace it...sometimes its hard to find but its always there, no matter how small....just believe. Love you! XOXO!!!

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      Code_of_the_Arts
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      Halo not broken.. yet, hehehe!!
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      Posted 2 months ago by Code_of_the_Arts

      Hang in dere Bre!! Life is made of ups and downs in order for us to experience and learn. Whatever the situation that u are having, just think dat it will get better. Always have a positive view of things hun. I've had tough roads, but never stopped believing and I know u can keep dat smile I see in ur badge hun. tk care

      Luv ya

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